I don't want to sound totally annoying and a whore for attention in this blog, but this is really how I feel.
It feels like I am the smallest priority in everyone's life. I'm not saying I AM the smallest, maybe not, but it feels like it. There's always, ALWAYS, someone better than me. Someone that can be compared to me to make me feel downsized. I usually don't mind this, but i dont know. Sometimes its small and avoidable when someone tells me about a guy or something, but then it gets outta hand and gets me annoyed when they start telling me about all this fun they had with someone and basically mocking at how I wasn't involved. I know this is totally off topic, but I thought I'd get this out too.
I think I'm too easily taken advantage of. I try to be too nice at times, help everyone out at the same time but then it all fails in the end cause they forget. Soon they don't even remember how I tried to help them out and start telling me about this great guy that gave them the best advice and made them smile and laugh, and there I am, realizing what a waste of time that was. I know I feel good on the inside, knowing that I did my best to help someone out in their time of need. But then I think about how many people actually appreciate and welcome it. In my whole life of helping people and caring for them, I have barely gotten any thanks. Not that I'm asking for that, I just want to feel like what I'm doing is actually right and it's not just a waste of my time and your time. The least you can do is NOT compare me to someone that's better than me right? Cause nobody likes that. Some people give some effort to appreciate my help and feeding me lies. Or maybe, not lies. Maybe they mean it. Maybe the few that actually take a minute in their life to thank me or to let me know they care back, maybe they really mean it. Anyway, it's fine, it's whatever, I bounce back fast. I'm still going to help, to my best limits, but please excuse my daily or weekly mood swings that always kick in, where I'm a short fuse, literally. Just make me smile and I'm sure it'll be worth it. I love you, I don't expect the same, just pretend for me. =]
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That's not cool that people kinda intentionally or unintentionally kinda mock you by bringing up happy times. Aw man, nobody should put you through that. Not a good feeling at all.
Yaa, just remember to always continue helping your friends because one way or another it will pay off. It's great how you never let anything get you down. =) Keep it up.
Real Talk
Someone will always be more important, and better than you. It's life. You sound like you want credit for helping out someone. You help out some because you want to, not for credit or something along those lines.
He didn't say he always wants credit, or that's what he's looking for...he just said it would be nice once in a while.
You told me to suck dick... so...
Just look at your own dick and look how big it is.
It's the equivalent to your ego and social status.
Seriously.
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