With Wisdom Comes Passion, or Vise-Versa?

I dont know. The more i discover about life and culture, the more i want to get involved.
It's not one of those poserey little things that people do once or twice and think its a passion, but its something that i really want to do. i've fully discovered music and im totally involved. it surrounds me and revolves around me. all kinds too, not just one genre. i can play the guitar, recorder, xylophone, and the drums (ish). i can scream and i can rap. because through the years ive struggled and learned all about it.
I've learned to control my emotions through lyrics ive written and poems ive written. and let me tell you, theyve came out good. ive written and translated stories. ive expressed my soul to its limits. and yet im not fulfilled. today me and one of my closest friends hung out outside all day. just us two. we hadnt done that in a while. and we actually had a bunch of large convos. we went around some railroad tracks and got loads of sexy pictures. We told each other about our soon-future goals. he wants to be a chef and me a part time musician/photographer. PHOTOGRAPHER! it had struck me. i wanted to spend some time of my life. maybe even just two years, or maybe my whole life, as a photographer. i know its nothing you can get a life from. it doesnt pay enuff to meet todays prices, but maybe as a part time job. I just want to be able to capture a moment in time and be ableta keep it, i dont care how cliched that sounds, i want that. i know i do. you may think its some infatuation but its not! i really love the feeling. the feeling of writing light (photo=light, graph=write) and keeping it forever (or until its lost somewhere in the stacks of paper and bills in my house) showing future generations and letting them know how life was back then (now) Besides this we also talked about going to some art university together and getting some big ass condo in seattle or something and just hanging out daily till our real future as adults kicks in and we haveta lose childhood forever. but this part shall be continued in another blog coming soon. the main point is, i want to continue my hobbies in art and expressing myself. i dont want to be left behind and deevolutionized like the rest of the youth. i want to surpass others in mind and emotions. its too much to ask for, true, but nobody has ever reached the finish line by stopping and walking back to the starting line. and i dont plan to back up. im gonna keep going till my soul is fully captured in bits and pieces of my work and life. if you want to stay ahead and just live life, i suggest you do the same. =]